Spoke to an old friend and she saw an ex of mine and have informed me that he had asked for her contact info. I was disgusted but was over it in a heartbeat. Both of them, I realized, do not deserve my love and my friendship.
I just don't understand. Here I am looking for true love yet I'm surrounded with people that are dishonest and deceitful always seem to find exactly what they want. I went to visit the girl above with her live in boyfriend (who's madly in love with her) yet all she could talk about is how another guy wants to marry her and buy her a house, new purses, etc....I'm so confused. Why can't I have that since I can fully love..
The weekend was a bliss. I was surrounded with love. Love between my dad and mom (it's been 25 years for them), my sister and sing, my friend Dania and her new found lawyer, and my sister Victoria who's so excited to buy her bf a souvenir.
I see so many things that are wrong but yet they seem to find always something right. Here I am listening to my future wedding song and imagining my own wedding one day yet I don't even have a boyfriend. I've been diligently going to church and am loving it. Many may find it confusing and surprising but it really makes me happy to be that close to something higher and beyond who I am.
Is it because I love too fast? too much? Perhaps I will just forever be alone...
P.s. finally finished my college application and turned it in. It's a good time to refocus.
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