Is it even right to be thankful?

The road was slightly slippery due to the morning fog. It's 5 am and I am on my way to Fontana to take my uncle to his surgery. Resentment was the only thing on my mind.

Here I am trying to start out a new job with $40 in gas budget for the week and now I have to spend $60 just driving back and forth Newport and pay another $20 for prescriptions. What happened to our sense of family?

Why? I'm just a niece. No brothers or sisters were there to be found. I could only imagine how my uncle must feel like going to the surgery room this morning. I couldn't even look him in the eye. I felt guilty but I felt mad at my family...........I am so mad...I don't understand.

I was late to my own dr's appointment today and was late 3 hours to my 2nd week at my new job. I felt resentment even more.

Then I drove to OC...I thought to myself..that could also be me. When I have surgery...will my family just look away?

Happy thanksgiving? A new job? That's probably the only thing I want to be thankful for......