When was the last time you cried 3 times in one night?

Tonight is the last night of rehearsal for my choir. We ended the evening sharing personal stories, birthday wishes, and a treat of ice cream and cookies. We ended hearing emails and a couple of members sharing their illnesses. One is going through surgery for her thyroid cancer and the other will be undergoing a heart bypass. I was heartbroken. I sat by Trudy every Wednesday night and Sunday morning at church. I didn't realize how music have impacted my life and how these people have become so close to me over the last year.

I came home. I watched the ending of American Idol finale and I saw how the winner just ended the song with a family hug. He was crying...emotional...I cried too. I thought about my family and how we've been in a whirlwind of emotions, unnecessary pain, and hurtful misunderstandings. A holiday weekend is coming up and we work so hard to be close to one another but always seem defeated in the end. I cried the second time around.

I spend the last month being romanced by music. Music talked to me about flowers, gift, relentless text messages, books, and pictures...I started driving listening to you today. I saw you smile and made me happy. I thought the pain has gone away since my birthday.

Sadly - I don't need any more friends...I may not be around long enough even for friends. How bittersweet life could be sometimes... Nevertheless, I never thought I'd feel this way again We don't always get what we want I cried again for the third time in one night...

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ OH, WHY YOU LOOK SO SAD? TEARS ARE IN YOUR EYES COME ON AND COME TO ME NOW DON'T BE ASHAMED TO CRY LET ME SEE YOU THROUGH 'CAUSE I'VE SEEN THE DARK SIDE TOO WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOTHING YOU CONFESS COULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS

I'LL STAND BY YOU I'LL STAND BY YOU WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU I'LL STAND BY YOU

SO IF YOU'RE MAD, GET MAD DON'T HOLD IT ALL INSIDE COME ON AND TALK TO ME NOW HEY, WHAT YOU GOT TO HIDE? I GET ANGRY TOO WELL I'M A LOT LIKE YOU WHEN YOU'RE STANDING AT THE CROSSROADS AND DON'T KNOW WHICH PATH TO CHOOSE LET ME COME ALONG 'CAUSE EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG

I'LL STAND BY YOU I'LL STAND BY YOU WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU I'LL STAND BY YOU TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU I'LL STAND BY YOU

AND WHEN... WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU, BABY YOU'RE FEELING ALL ALONE YOU WON'T BE ON YOUR OWN