This is collection of a few life lessons.
I represent both someone who possess endless strengths and inconsolable sadness. You will see a woman who was made to feel shame for her desires and yet had the courage to pursue them anyway. At 23, I thought I found Elizabeth. Now at 35, I long to rediscover her again. Let Me Fly...Reinvent...and Stay Extraordinary...
"Happiness is only real when shared"...Christopher McCandless 2007
After anxiously waiting for Petar (my new Serbian friend), I stopped by a small coffee shop to work on my blog. I was a bit nervous for I...
Monday, March 30, 2015
Gosh...lots have happened since my last post. It's been a long time.
Well - to start of, I have a new name: Mrs. Elizabeth Creager. I married the man of my dreams. I am blessed. I also started a new job with the California version of ObamaCare called Covered California. Other than that, it's been a whirlwind.
Our love letters and prayers are not just meant for the two of us...it's meant for everyone to understand how truly wonderful love can be...this is my prayer and song for you this week Captain....
So who's to say that dreams don't come true...til this day, I still am out of words how I fall in love with you every single minute and hour of the day...
I will marry you for the man that you've been, that you are, and I know you will always be. You have glorified the true meaning and what I have always imagined what life with love could be... You have melted my heart with your passion, with your words, and with your wisdom
I see love through the eyes of our family and friends... I see the love that your parents have for you.... I see the love that you have as a father to your pet Sophie...
I have never been so proud to be in love with someone as charming as you are... Your eyes, your smile that are dedicated just for me, your eloquence with your love...
I see the love that my parents see when you look at me.. I want to keep that love...everyday of my life for the rest of our life..
I appreciate your for your support and understanding of my weaknesses... Thank you for shedding light in the darker part of my life..
You accept me with no reservations...You love me for my TRUE self..
I could only hope that I share and give the same love that you give to me every day..
This is going to be another full year of adventures and I'm so glad to have it with you...
This song is for you my love..
Brandon Evan Creager - I love you...you are mine..I am yours...and I look forward to sharing my life with you :)
OVERJOYED
Over time, I've been building my castle of love Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason I've gone much too far, for you now to say That I've got to throw my castle away
Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect 'come true' Though you never knew it was of you I've been dreaming The sandman has come from too far away For you to say, "Come back some other day"
And though you don't believe that they do They do come true, for did my dreams Come true when I looked at you And maybe too, if you would believe You too might be overjoyed, over loved, over me
Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone Just to find, I had found what I've searched to discover I've come much too far for me now to find The love that I've sought can never be mine
And though you don't believe that they do They do come true, for did my dreams Come true when I looked at you And maybe too, if you would believe You too might be overjoyed, over loved, over me
And though the odds say improbable What do they know for in romance All true love needs is a chance And maybe with a chance you will find You too like I, overjoyed, over loved, over you
A mediocre person tells. A good person
explains. A superior person demonstrates. A great person inspires others to see
for themselves.“ - Harvey
Mackay
Another year has been a true testament to patience, compassion, and unconditional love. I have learned the gift of relationships that are based on selfless compromises, open communication, and opening your heart and accepting love from new people in your life.
She was a part of my history. I fell in love with you and accepted you
as my mother for the first years of my life. I love the clothes you made
me. I always felt beautiful wearing them. I remember this black white
and yellow shirt I used to front. It was different, it was unknowingly
me as a child. It was my special shirt every week.
I just chose to look away even when I felt that every year I was replaced by another
favorite. I was never mad at you. I never disrespected you. I treated
you fairly in the midst of anger, pain, and sorrows from neglected
feelings to others that your love have caused. Your love was tolerable
but often came with pain. I was told to gain wisdom from you but sadly I
have learned those wisdom from strangers instead.
Please don't misunderstand. I grieve differently and often times silently. I don't speak my pain. I laugh relentlessly through stress only to be disregarded carelessly. I don't like when others see me cry. I've already felt sorry for myself enough.
I cannot look at you when you're in pain. The way you hold my hands is unbearable. I wish I could be the one to let you go. You need God's embrace.
I reached out to both of you. I want to be good to both of you. You both accepted the love that you both think you deserve. You get mad at me for you know I think you can accept and deserve better. You denied me many things I wanted in life but yearly I learned to forgive. I tried to include you but you both never included me. I tried to tell you and I just feel ignored. I try but our values get in the way. I wish it was easier to see things my way.
I was always good to you. I wanted to give you the world. I cry when I think you're in pain. We do our best to give you the love that you think you think you deserve but your words, your decisions hurt us sometimes. Sometimes I think that distance would help but you're the one who's supposed to show us guidance and unconditional love. But sometimes, it seems like you put others before us.
We all want to explain. You don't really listen what our heart is telling you. The best thing we learned is just to say sorry and do it your way. I could never imagine not having you in our lives. Truth of the matter is we need you. I need you. You're the only one I have that's close to kin but you hurt me sometimes. You just do.
I am beyond happy. I have never been this happy in my life. I want to share it to everyone I love. I am not boasting but I am proud of who I have become and for what he has made me become; an even better person.
Thank you for sharing a year of love with me, putting up with my faults, and seeing beyond the Beyonce half time walk.
To many - Vday has now been too commercialized rather than just a day to celebrate love.
I remember being in NYC once for Valentine's day. It was such a beautiful February day and the city just brightened up after a weekend of cold blizzard. I was single then and I remember walking by Union Square and was overwhelmed by the number of men carrying flowers. It made me smile. Deep inside I was wondering how it would feel to have someone think of me that day and bring me flowers. Now, I seem to be allergic. 1 rose is enough. A dozen for $50 is just ridiculous. I couldn't eat them lol.
Of course, typical Elizabeth, had to ask a random passerby who these dozen of roses for. He said with the smile "for my grandmother". That made my day. That same day I spent an evening eating chinese at a random diner in the middle of the east village area not too far from 9th avenue. I remember being sad and lonely. Loneliness is never a good feeling specially when you're far away from home.
It's been a toxic day of the past. I ran across letters and cards dating back in 2002 while cleaning up a room. I can't imagining uttering those same words to those people now at this point in my life. Nevertheless, I can't help but stop and tear. What happened? Who have I become? What were we thinking? To be young and in love....in my case to be in love with the young lol...
This Valentine - I am glad to be have a love........
It's now a month and half since the Captain and I moved in together. I am learning a lot about him, about me, and also about others around me. As of today, I feel good, comfortable, and HAPPILY home.
2013 has already been proven to be good to Elizabeth. Last week, I walked out of our Fresno office with a big smile on my face for my manager said that I have been the top performer in my team. My doctor also presented some good news; my medication dosage will be decreasing in a month - my body is healing and adjusting accordingly to the new changes in my life.
As expected, the drive back and forth to Newport is definitely unbearable. I tried to keep singing with the old choir but after feeling like an outsider for living in sin while taking Sunday communion, I decided to move on.
I drove in from Fresno last Thursday evening. I was greeted with a heartwarming smile at the car rental place. I never had anyone help me picking up my car rental; it's really nice to have a bf who's there for you. Within the same night, I drove downtown to go for an audition for an alto spot for the Los Angeles Cathedral Choir; a parish almost 5 times the size of what I am accustomed to in Newport. It took me an elevator from the , a 5 minute walk that seemed like a half a mile from the parkingSu lot to church back entrance, 4 more flights of stairs and a couple of turns leads you into a cold rehearsal room. A tall man with full grey hair and big blue eyes made me stand by the piano and sing in front of a 60 people choir - I stood in shock and was told to just sit in (meaning I didn't get it) ...after the rehearsal, I was told to fit onto a robe.
The next Sunday started with an 8 am call time for a 10 am mass then a 2 hour break for a 2:30 pm call time for a 7 pm concert with 900 member choral ensemble. I got home at 11 pm practically dead. It was an amazing christening for a stressful series of events.
Needless to say, Elizabeth finally got her groove back :) Maybe even a new parish to call home.
This week is dedicated to St. Valentines. I guess you heard my prayers. Thank you. February marks the 8th month of my relationship. Although we are riding along, my heart remains longing for unrealistic answers about what the future may bring. Vulnerable but extremely overwhelmed by how beautiful true love brings one into your life.. It's a special week but with how we do things - it's almost like it's valentine's every week :)
Here's a video from a smiliar concert last year :
Photos from this year's concert
My new parish and choir - The Los Angeles Cathedral Choir (I'm in the front row, 3rd from the right)
Our new digs and our very first visit from new friends..
It is truly amazing how a weekend with your friends can help you learn so much about yourself and about them. I just spent a weekend in Vegas with my best of friends and know that although there are major changes in my life coming up, I am confident that we will never lose touch.
It's now time to reflect on what 2012 have brought into my life....today I celebrate the following people in my life... Brandon - You are truly heaven sent. Your love is overflowing in my heart and in my soul. We joke about your nicknames and how I call you the Captain but you truly have been the main navigator of this ship of adventures. You are and will always be my superhero. I would give my life for you. To My Sisters, My Mom, and My Dad - My best friend Trent told me this year that I sabotage my relationships but I learned that I do this because of my passion to love and see my love ones grow. I hurt you but I hope you know that it's because I love you and that I want to give and see you with everything that you deserve. It has been another year of life lessons for all of us. As a family, I hope we always have the love and strength to forgive and understand each other. To Trent - You are the brother that I have always wanted and my love for you grow everyday. We are so far from each other and you may not be as expressive as we could be but I know how much you love and care for me. Our friendship have grown exponentially this year. You gave me the unconditional friendship and love I have always longed for. Thank you for the trust, honesty, and love.
Patty, Peter, Coco, Argha, Greg, Brian and Jackie - Because of you, Life is beautiful, meaningful, and full. You guys are keepers....when I say I love you...it's because I really do.
Jason - I wish that our lives can cross paths one day but I am ok that all we share are stories. Thank you for giving me the gift of friendship and love. You have such a great fatherhood ahead of you. You have given me so much more than you'll ever know.
This 2013, I welcome new adventures. I will learn how to swim in waters I didn't even know existed. Last year, I gained lessons of love. I've never felt so sure of the steps that I take in my life. Perhaps it's because I know that there is someone out there that truly believes in me. Three words for 2013....HONESTY, INTEGRITY, AND RESPECT..
Happy New Year!
Friday, December 21, 2012
One word - Blessed....
Last Christmas in Newport - at least for a while.....A new year of excitement ahead. In the Mayan calendar, it's supposed to be our last day on earth. I was asked what I would like to do on my last day on earth....I said a couple of things but deep inside my heart, I long for one thing........
Regrets - we all have one or two. I have quite a bit....We live..we learn....there are many things that I wish I could have done...things I could have done better.
To my friends - thanks for being my second family...
Last week's massacre at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown,
Connecticut, came as a shock to many of us. I spent the morning trying to imagine how it must be like to a parent of one of the kids that have passed. At 6, how are you supposed to have the mindset to have the courage to be brave. How it must be like to be one of the teachers in that school when your job is to educate and inspire kids but you suddenly have to act like a parent and teach your kids how to be brave.
I'ts 6 am. It's our musician's call time for a big day in our church. Last Sunday, we sang for the last time in our old church. I have never seen this side of our musical director. A woman of such strength and command opened up dedicating our service to the kids of Sandy Hook today. We leave a history of birth, weddings, funerals. We cried thinking of the many years spent celebrating many moment of life. This morning, we open a new sanctuary for the new.
Today, we dedicate a new beginning for our parish. Such a beautiful accomplishment after years of fund raising and planning. I want to share my our dedication music to all the families affected by this week's tragic event. It's time to encourage compassion.
To my friend who is a grade school teacher....Jackie - I appreciate you ...
Aimlessly, my mind and heart often wander of what life of this 10 year old could be. It's a never-ending test of one's personal convictions, trust, and integrity. I live in constant fear of what's the unknown when the unknown it's not even part of the equation that I'm trying to solve.
I'm strong but I'm still truly weak and although life is where I have never imagined it would be, I can't help but always wonder. I wish that one day I find the courage to share my fears. May God find a way to give me the light to cure a broken and trustless heart.
It was almost like watching a story unfold about a childhood of a man at 27. You hear of little stories, places where he's been, things he used to do, ways that he used to be while you were given moving mental pictures about his life and everyone around it.
He is the sun; the man that sheds his energy and wakes you up with his radiating brightness. He is surrounded by these planets that revolve around him as life and time went by. The planets spoke about events of his light and darkness. His glimmer never stops and energy widely and openly take.
This weekend I fell in love with his Venus; his evening and morning star shining above her love ones. As she orbited the light of sun, she glimmers as the Roman Goddess of love and beauty. She filled my weekend with endless wonders. She offers a faint motion of love and devotion that equally grows to those that offers equal affection. Like the evening star, she lights up a room as radiant as her sun and you can't help to stare at her, learn about her story, fade away in her eyes. Her beauty is unique glorified by the glow of the love that surrounds her. Her name is Diane.
He was and still your earth. He grounds you. He provides the essentials and comfort that reminds us of what's important. He follows the same movement as Venus to share the energy that you give. He provides the four seasons that that reminds us of that constant circle and our place in life. You think you are different from each other in way of distance, perhaps age, content, size but offer the same values and integrity of life. In many ways, he needs you but you also need him for he will always be a part of you even if you're stationary and he circles the universe around you. His name is Richard.
Perhaps you may classify her as Pluto. She used to be a part of your system but now we found out that she is her own. Nevertheless, she will always be part of you for you grew up knowing who she is to you. She has created a new system but never forget she's very much like you. As a moon, I felt her presence and I know how much she loves you. Heck - why wouldn't you be, you both have high school yearbook pictures at the basement.
I will be forever be your moon that simply borrows from your light; a light of compassion, love, and endless warmth from the core of your heart. Some nights I may be covered by clouds. I will change shapes but just like on Sunday night around you - I glow and light dark paths and just like the moon - sometimes, I have a rough dry patches (like in my face everytime I'm in MN)..good luck.
Brandon - word for word, I feel very much the same way..You said..".. I've never felt like this. I want to express to you how much
I am in love with you and how much you mean to me... But I can't find
the words. I'm afraid if I try to describe it that they wouldn't
completely define my love on the correct level. You embrace my family
with open arms... you can handle my friends... you can handle me!!! You
love the things that I love and... you expose me to new things that I
have never tried before" (like death in a cornfield)
I like to think that who I am (my story) is defined by the
experiences that I have and the places I've been. I want those
experiences and stories to have you in them! I want to learn new things
with you and see new places.
“I love you not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you
have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me"
As of today, we have seen each other relentlessly for 10 days in a row. I cannot live without seeing or talking to you everyday. This weekend was perfect.....extremely perfect..thank you my love...
Yet another perfect weekend. I am still trying to convince myself that you're not just a pigment of my imagination. Our pace, our love for each other, your family, friends, and our weird moments of saying and always thinking the same thing at the same time; one thing I only tend to have that with is my best friend, Trent. I guess it's time to change that mindset, you are my new best friend.
I have to write this down for I will forget...here are the turn of events:
Thursday night - date night in little saigon - we discovered a new favorite - duck spring rolls :) - you couldn't have been any more patient with me after driving me back and forth to pick up hair products the night before our very first flight together.
Friday morning - your dad's car service picked us up, he looked so adorable and calm, while you made a fuzz about your starbucks at John Wayne - it was a nice flight, we fell asleep on each other's shoulders.and holding each other's hands...
Friday afternoon - Lunch with your mom and a mini tour of Bloomington...I was tired but for the most part I was smiling - the turning leaves looked so beautiful around where you're from. That run was perfect :)...I feel so inspired, close, and most of all enthralled with your love...
Friday night - we were slightly in tears during the wedding procession, we kept on falling in love with each other all night - it was so nice to be greeted by your doggies.....the next day
Saturday - our beautiful run, quick coffee with your dad and mom, lunch with your mom and dad, appetizers with your whole family, an amazing dinner by the water with the Creages...and a night out with your high school friends - I was smiling all day :) thank you..
Sunday - brunch with an old friend, and laughing with you all afternoon because you wanted to get upgraded first class by your self...thanks for putting me under the bus :)
I don't ever remember ever traveling with anyone like you...seamless, flawless, easy and in love..
thanks for a wonderful weekend captain :) I love you :)
It's been a long while since I have felt like this. To put it simply, it's beyond wonderful.
For years, I tried to imagine, how it must be like to have things fall into place when I used to be madly in love with David, Matt, and Calvin. 13 years of romance...what may seemed a lifetime just all went down the drain....but it's all coming back to me now. I found happiness again.
First and last calls of the day, trip plannings, family events, and sleepovers...it's nice. I find myself smiling all the time, unfocused but driven to make this one work. Honestly, I'm in heaven....I deserve you! I know!
Two weeks ago, I thought it was going to end.....I was wrong.....the universe realigned things to help me find love.
This is for you Captain America - I AM IN LOVE...and I'm glad it's with you and I can't wait to meet you family and to learn more about your childhood in Minnesota later this month!
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
"The Greater The Obstacle, The More Glory in Overcoming It"
Moliere
This weekend, I did something I never thought I would be ever suited to do. To be surrounded by such inspiring and youthful energy - how could one ever deny the glory of a personal triumph.
Thanks to Brandon and Argha for yet another amazing weekend....Looking forward to our run on Sunday
Superheroes and fairy tales have one thing in common with certain aspects of life; it's nice but unreal.
How I long for days when unconditional love and laughter is shared amongst strangers. I crave for true sentiments of compassion and from what someone just pointed out to me today; selflessness.
Ariel from the little mermaid is a perfect reminder of the sacrifices that may be made for true love. Things are cloudy ahead. It's sunny outside but I'm gloomy within.
What a week. It didn't even feel like I had a holiday. My friend was in town, combined with an action-packed weekend, and tired from the weekend before that camping - I ended the week with an overdue evening of salsa dancing.
Trent and I just had an amazing bonding weekend. I've never felt so close talking with him. He opened to me in way of love, family, and friends. I did the same. Our values remain the same.
At 8:30 pm, I was almost ready to cancel but I left the decision to my carpool friend. I was dressed up and at his place by 9:15. He wasn't too happy that I was late.
It was an hour drive to one of the best salsa places in LA and we reminisced the older times. Javier and I spoke of his family, salsa parties we've been together, and the people that came into our lives along the day; some of them still around and some of them have disappeared.
I came into Hacienda - I felt my right toe tapping in counts of 8. My shoulders are ready to move and my fingers are curling up with anticipation. It's only been a month since the last time I dropped by and I saw so many faces.
First, I saw Alysa. She spoke of a recent surfer I just hosted through my friend Coco. Such a small world. I also ran across Rigo. I took classes with him in 2006 in Long Beach and was mutual friends with a colleague that moved from California to Houston. Daniel Stine is now married. I am happy for him.
I ran by Bob - Good old cha cha Bob. He greeted me with such a smile and asked me to dance. He always lit the room up with spirit and made every single woman on the dance floor feel so beautiful every time he is around.
He came up to me, smiled, and said "What happened the same Elizabeth that comes dashing into a room with light? She is losing her essense". I responded, "It's just not the same anymore". Oddly enough, he told me that nothing will ever be the same since every day is a new day. He said, "You have to welcome change and people in your life as they come and let them go as you see fit." I was in shocked. It's almost like he read through me.
I'm feeling restless. My knees are constantly hurting and I'm in constant pain. Trent is also oddly enough feeling the same.
This is a poem that Mr. Stine shared to me once as a birthday gift -
Reason, Season, or Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Children often reminds many of us of innocence, ignorance, and perhaps a life's true unconditional love and joy. I wish I could remember what it was like to just be a child.
I always knew differently. I knew we were poor. I knew I'm not like other kids in my school. My discipline comes from the wisdom I gathered from the streets, babies I held in my arms, school teachers, cousins, and even maids.
As a child, I have kept a vivid memory of what school was like. Every morning, I walked a quarter of a mile of what seemed like 3 miles for a 7 year old child. From the main avenue, you'd turn right into the town's main plaza. On your right will be the town stage, a basketball court, and a clinic. On the left is the church and the town hall. I have walked that plaza hundreds of times for 7 years.
As you walk closer to the school, you face that once green but now brown rusted steel gate. There you will see a line of students alongside their parents. They look at each other holding hands saying "It's going to be alright". In their white and blue uniforms, the boys sport their backpacks and the girls with their cutest lunch pails. Behind them is a child that always longed for that same affection - wearing the uniforms that my grandma made her and the only pair of socks, wet from last night's rain, holding a brown manila envelope that holds her #1 pencil, crayolas, and a notebook. That kid was me.
They always seem to leave me. I never leave with them. My only childhood memory of a parent is the day when my mom left me and my sister. I was 9 then.
I often avoided questions about parents. As I child, growing up with no parents is almost synonymous to having both your legs injured but yet you learn to get used to the pain and walk with pride anyway. When parents are not around, it's usually because they are abroad, making lots of money, but they are supposed to come back showering every one in the family with money from their months away of labor. It's deemed sensational because it may mean new clothes, good food, and temporary happiness and freedom away from the pains of poverty. Very little awareness were considered upon what it may mean to a lonely child.
Finally, at 13, I left with them, instead of being just left. It was the closest thing that I have seen in way of family. Despite of the many hardships and tears spent on that yellow 2 bedroom trailer home, I smile for the many hours spent as a family surrounding a glass table for nights of chili, tacos, and episodes of Full House. There I lived with a family of strangers in a town just as strange to me; no steel gates, brown envelopes, or uniforms.
"SADLY I DO"
I left almost 6 years later. My outlook in life is now often questioned for not having been around since then.....for my life is different and I haven't seen much of reality for a while. Sadly, I do and still understand. After all, I am older and have seen more than many around me can remember consciously; some I don't necessarily even want to remember.
"LUCK OF THE DRAW"
Many of you are so lucky. I smile whenever I see a child at Disneyland enjoying an $80 dollar ticket to the park, eating their $5 ice cream. I smile when I see training wheels on a bike and seeing a fearful parent half excited and half concerned teaching their child riding a bike. I smile when I see parks with children playing with their parents or when I see a child riding on Daddy's shoulders trying to get up on a slide. Be grateful. Many never got to see or feel any of those.
"TO MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE"
On my way back from Utah, I called mom. I hung up for I began to cry. You're so close yet you feel so far again. I wanted to make you feel how much I love you yet I feel so helpless and so far away from you. I feel just like I am 9 again. Your pain is mine. All I want is to also make you happy.
"BE GRATEFUL"
I read this waking up this morning - Brandon and Eric - you have enlightened me :)
"Life is like a beautiful melody, only sometimes the lyrics are messed up."
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend and you might even fall in love. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing so fast. So take too many pictures, laugh too hard, and love like you've never been hurt because every minute you spend mad or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
"So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned - my conclusion, right? Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.' "
A moment with God in Utah
I guess I'm officially 10 years old today. Writing has not been of highest priority. It's either I have way too many feelings to express or maybe I just haven't had much time. Life I guess is simply never boring.
It's been 2 years since a big birthday event. Since then, I said I would never do it again but looked who got sucked into doing one again? ;)
Seamless may be the right word for this one. Location, the people, and the flow of the event just seemed to have perfectly come into fruition altogether. Best of it all, my help didn't have drama or complaints...I even got to socialize a little and eat. By 2 am, everything was put away and I was tucked into bed with a couple of friends...really good friends...they made my birthday complete this year.
Thank you Coconuts for a fabulous fundraiser :)
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